me and my EX best friend from the middle of high school...Aria have been forced to reunite because of a motorcylce accident including her mothers boyfriend. Now they live with us...yea sympathy blah blah. but whatever they are fucking FREELOADERS. neither of them have a job her or her mother. We dont have the money to support 2 other people..and we have not recieved one cent. Tam is crushed. of course, the love of her life just died in a tragic accident. but Aria is a different story, she has always been a robot, with no emotion. i havent been friends with her for a few years now. we stopped talking because she was doing coke alot and becoming a "scene" kid WHICH IS DISGUSTING. but now since she has moved to vermont she has turned into a BROHOE and an avid pot smoker. she has completely taken over my room. smoking in my bed. putting glitter on EVERYTHING(she is MADE of glitter). yesterday i had enough. she had her friend sleep over 2 nights in a row and i was out of a bed. FUCK THAT i flipped shit last night and made it very clear that she was in MY room and she needed to respect me and my things. all of my art notebooks she drewALL OVER with her little hello kitty and diamond shit. she broke my crayons, there was ramen smushed yes SMUSHED into my sheets along with granola bar rappers. this girl is GOING to get it. she should be home soon. last night she slept at someones house because i kicked her out of my room. bitch deserved it.

i havent gone on here in forever.. i miss bitching about my life
so me and sam all worked out fine and we are still dating...hes such a great kid now

anyways.... im getting a turtle in about half of an hour i cant wait to meet my little new partner for life. i mean this little dude is going to live for 40 years or even more. thats alot longer than almost any marriage today.
his or her name...i cant tell till they grow to (sexual maturity) which is about 3-5 years or something. shit i dont know how im going to deal with not knowing what my new partners sex is lol
well im getting all this shit for it. i swear it needs EVERYTHING.

i need a 10 gallon tank.
a 30-40 gallon water filter
some cleaning stuff
basking lamp
the turtle :]
sand
a platform
maybe a ground fault interrupter
and guppies
I HAVE TO FEED HIM OTHER ANIMALS
i became a vegitarian... this is a little weird for me
i have to watch my beloved new baby eat other live animals. i have to buy fish in order to just kill them
i have decided to name them all spencer.

and i can feed him cat food as a treat how cute is that!

their name will be midori

the color of honda hatchs according to sam lol
its actually just the japanese word for green

so ive decided im crazy.
ive been keeping a "log" of what he does that really really pisses me off. since uh monday, its now wednesday night. he has accomplished to blow me off a whopping 5 TIMES in 3 DAYS.
how do you accomplish that one asks. easy.
monday
"hey want me to come over?"
later
"hey something came up tomorrow for sure okay?"
tuesday i didnt go to school cause i didnt feel well wake up to a text. hey i cant hang out i have to go to the dentist
WTF IS THIS? so he has an appointment at 3 I HAVE ALL FUCKING DAY TO HANGOUT
ok so he moves the plans to around 7
then cant. pushes it to 9
THEN HE DOESNT WANT TO HANG OUT CAUSE ITS TOO LATE
wow 
then today he was supposed to pick me up and bring me home... of course HE DID NOT
so guess what?
we have plans for tomorrow. ill keep you posted

i have a "love interest", and it sucks. he doesnt want me period. and i guilt trip him CONSTANLY because of it.  he says that he "doesnt want a relationship" that its not just because its a relationship with me. i dont understand the male mindset yet. will i ever though? i mean hes 3 whole years older than me.. whatever thats nothing; he says O YOUR TOO YOUNG...IM TOO OLD...IT WONT WORK..
why not try?
but at the same time he "cares so much about me" and he cant ever stop thinking about me, would give the world for me?
way to drive a girl insane.  
the actual story of this entry is this.
i got bored. and decided. HEY I WANT TO HANG OUT
but whenever i want to hang out with him he is "sick" or "busy"
hes a fan of making excuses
but the one thing he LOVES is his car.
so saturday he was talking about how he painted his fog lights yellow.
and i said to him "oh come over i want to see"
and i could hear him just light up. he was amazed by the fact that i had said that. 
i dont really give a shit about that car, but i care ALOT about him and thats what he is interested in. so why not show an interest myself..even if it is a fake interest.
so he came over and i got to spend the whole day with him. and it happened the day after that too. so what is this supposed to mean?
did i show interest and now he is finally into hanging out, does he really only care about his car? am i in the wrong for pretending to be interested in his car? what does this mean 
im only a girl